The main clue on Bashasa's face is that he's blushing harder than Kai has ever seen him and his eyes don't seem to want to settle on meeting Kai's, which is unusual.
"A consort," he says with a tone that clearly says that, for a moment, he's hoping if he just repeats himself, Kai will magically understand. When he obviously doesn't, he tries again, "That we're sleeping together," no wait, that's not helpful either, they often are sleeping together. Innocently. In separate bedrolls right near one another because Kai is his bodyguard and his confidant and friend not because... "They think the relationship is sexual," maybe if he keeps it clinical this will be easier, except his mouth and his brain seem somewhat disconnected, "Based on the context clues, I think they believe I've trapped you somehow, like at--" no, he really doesn't want to draw that comparison, now that he thinks about it, so it's an even more awkward pivot, "-- that I'm using you. For sex. Among other things."
Why is Kai standing so close? He has been trying very hard for a while now as they have travelled to not think about any of this, but it's exponentially more difficult with Kai easily in reach, almost half backing him up against his travel desk, though Kai probably doesn't even see it that way and that's the problem isn't it?
He recognizes when his thoughts are chasing themselves and makes an effort to calm them. He's not used to being this flustered and he needs his wits about him right now possibly more than he has in a long time.
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Date: 2025-06-18 05:17 pm (UTC)"A consort," he says with a tone that clearly says that, for a moment, he's hoping if he just repeats himself, Kai will magically understand. When he obviously doesn't, he tries again, "That we're sleeping together," no wait, that's not helpful either, they often are sleeping together. Innocently. In separate bedrolls right near one another because Kai is his bodyguard and his confidant and friend not because... "They think the relationship is sexual," maybe if he keeps it clinical this will be easier, except his mouth and his brain seem somewhat disconnected, "Based on the context clues, I think they believe I've trapped you somehow, like at--" no, he really doesn't want to draw that comparison, now that he thinks about it, so it's an even more awkward pivot, "-- that I'm using you. For sex. Among other things."
Why is Kai standing so close? He has been trying very hard for a while now as they have travelled to not think about any of this, but it's exponentially more difficult with Kai easily in reach, almost half backing him up against his travel desk, though Kai probably doesn't even see it that way and that's the problem isn't it?
He recognizes when his thoughts are chasing themselves and makes an effort to calm them. He's not used to being this flustered and he needs his wits about him right now possibly more than he has in a long time.